As a new mom of two, I have found that the hours (or rather minutes) in the day that are exclusively mine are few and far between. Naptimes and bedtime are really the only opportunities that I have to myself, and yet those times are usually spent cleaning up the kitchen, folding laundry, or tidying up. And at night when Daniel is home, I enjoy spending a few moments with him before crawling into bed.
Yet, I crave more: More time to read, to write, to try out new recipes, to learn how to sew, even just to think. I miss graduate school because of the interaction with other grown-ups and the reading and studying of great literature that I love. However, while I do hope to return to my scholarly pursuits one day, right now I am blessed to be a part of two incredible Bible studies with friends who can empathize, advise, laugh and cry with me as I detail my current struggles with Kate's stubbornness or Cora's crying at night. And I know that all too soon Kate will be going to kindergarten and Cora won't be too far behind her, and then I'll be so lonely that I will actually wish one of them would come into the bathroom and ask, "Mama, what are you doing?"
LOL!!!! I know, girl....I think you and I feel a lot alike when it comes to motherhood. We wouldn't trade it for anything in the world, yet we are both passionate about other things like reading, writing, being creative, etc. I've always said that having one child allowed me to still have a little piece of me left. But once I had two, anything that was Laura before kids was now gone.....or gone for a little bit! We need more play dates together...bc yes, I need the adult interaction too! Thinking about you always! Let's get together soon!
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